I had at least 4,720,492 things on my to do list today after work. I was going to go to a yoga class, run, take my trash out, prep for work, etc etc, whatever a Type A professional woman in their late twenties are “supposed” to do on a Wednesday night.
Then as I stepped outside today leaving work, finally escaping the air conditioned igloo they call an office, I was overwhelmed by the warmth and the love I instantly felt by the sun, the air and just by nature. When I got home, I looked at my to do list, crumpled it up and dramatically threw it in my trash can (oh then took the trash out after, so yay I did get one thing done on the list) and I grabbed my keys and drove to my favorite trail. Like f*ck you to-do list! Tonight I just want to be outside and mingle with nature.
As I started running the trail behind my old house, (secretly trying to cross off “run 3 miles” which was on my to do list that I threw away) I started to notice the curves of the bridge, the calmness of the water, the small trembling of the wildflowers as people ran by them. I have been to this trail literally hundreds of times before and every single time I find something new that is so intricately beautiful. I started to slow down, and I eventually came to a full stop when I saw the sunset. I was captivated by its breathtaking view; I couldn’t move. So I found a little bench, I sat there and watched the sunset for almost an hour, until it was completely dark, listened to the crickets singing and trees breathing, and I wrote this:
Today I chased the sunset
Oh the sun, you teased me with your soft shades of pastels,
So today I followed you without question,
or the need to know where you will take me
Playfully, as if betting a game of hide and seek
I just flirted with your colorful rays and counted to 10
As you slowly melted into the edges of the world
But I know you will be back tomorrow
With hopeful warmth and shine again
As you always have as long as my existence coincided with yours
Today I ask, though, why majestic Sun?
You have the power to quit
You have the power to destroy
You have the power to disappoint
Just gracefully awakening each corner of the world
You don’t ever skip a day
Even though your blessings go unnoticed
You don’t stop shining
even when clouds and rain try to undermine your magnificence
You don’t stop to judge
to decide if we are worthy of your light each day
Simply Love, Love, Love.
Today I thought I chased the sunset;
And thought I bet a game of hide and go seek
But there was never chasing you or a game, you see
I just followed you
I didn’t question why
I didn’t expect anything of you
Just mesmerized by your pure beauty
I found myself here
I just realized,
You were teaching me how to
Simply Love, Love, Love.